Think about you every day Mom. Miss you so...

2 months you've been gone and it feels like forever. I don't even care about the holidays. Between losing you and the stress of the kids, I find it hard to even decorate... I miss the days when we had Christmas at your house. Good memories but I miss having you around to reminisce. ❤

Oh grandma....holidays are not the same without you. Despite not having you with us for a few years now during the holidays, your absence was felt deeply by mom and me. Thanksgiving was so lonely, not only because we didn't have anywhere to go, but because you were not with us. I wished you were still with us because I would have spent the day with you. We visited you today... well mom really did. We changed the flag and put up and Christmas wreath for you. As mom did that, I sat in the car with my children and cried because of the Christmas music that was playing. It makes me miss you so much it hurts. I love you and will forever.

I'm just writing today instead of Thursday because I had to get ready to come home. I wished I was coming home to visit you. I'm with mom and she's hanging on pretty well but the holidays will be hard. The more the Christmas decorations emerge, the more we miss you. I find myself seeing things I think you'd like and want to buy it.... but then reality hits me and I am reminded that you're gone. I'm taking care of mom the best I can for you. I always will. I promise you that.

I thought about you all day yesterday since its been a month since you passed... I cried, which is to be expected. Just hard to believe. I still can't believe I missed you by almost 24 hours. I wanted so badly to hold you... embrace you... perhaps even get a response from you... but it wasn't meant to be I guess. The twins talk about you. They know who you are in all the pictures I have of you. You would be amazed at how much they have grown! I love you and miss you everyday ❤

Thought about you today....no tears today because I was busy but the thought that youve been gone for almost a month weighed heavily on me. I really don't know how mom stays so strong. I think she hides most of her emotions from me concerning her grief . I wish you would send her a sign letting her know she made the right decisions in the end and that you're always with her.

Happy anniversary to you and grandpa. I hope you are dancing eternity away together. Hard to believe you would have been married 65 yrs today. I believe you were tired of spending them alone and chose to be with him this time, and I don't blame you at all. I've missed you so much today. Christmas decorations are making their way onto the shelves of stores. I found myself reminded of you in everything from figurines to something simple as a candy you would have enjoyed. I know it's been several years since we had you over for Christmas and it makes me sad, but we knew it was for the best as to not confuse you. I miss Christmases on 4th street. I miss so much. I still find myself wishing you had held on for just another day or two for me. The tears just don't want to subside... you meant the world to me, so I dont expect them to anytime soon. I love you grandma ❤

I can't believe you've been gone for 2 weeks. The pain is still strong. I cried for you again last night. I miss you and wished I had come home sooner. It will always hurt that I came home a day late. I wanted nothing more than to embrace you one more time while you were still with us. I truly hope you're at peace. I try so hard to let my memories of our time together overcome the sadness, but it often is too strong to overcome. I hope you know how much I loved you. I do find a smile, through the tears, knowing you got to hold Gracie before you left to join grandpa and the Lord.

We laid you to rest a week ago, grandma... and I've cried several times today. I miss you so much. I will until my last breath. I love you

So sorry for your loss.

She left a beautiful legacy in her children.

May she Rest In Peace.